So I have a new hobby.
Stretching.
And with stretching comes pain. The two are practically
inseparable just like fifth grade boys and paintball. Chipotle’s burrito bowl
with guacamole. Sufjan and unicorns.
Initially, the pain can be anywhere between a noticeable
annoyance to an unbearable bullet to the muscles. But over time, it grows into
an expectation and then a challenge and then perhaps even a mere moment in
paradise.
As silly as it may sound, the physical pain related to
stretching can be enjoyable in the sense that you are pushing through and
beyond a barrier of some kind. And then there is the small hope that the next
morning there will be less pain until you just go deeper and deeper into a
stretch.
And this brings me to my point.
Sometimes and even more than sometimes, pain is good… and
not just the muscle kind, but the heart kind too. Just like with stretching,
pain can be an obstacle to push through, an internal battle worth fighting
over. I believe somewhere deep in my gut that emotional tension can be a good
thing. Awkward silence can be a good thing. Not knowing what to do with
emotional tension and awkward silence can even be a good thing.
Yet over and over again, we wake up into a new day of
opportunity, a new day of stimulation, a new day of Divine Appointment and yet
we choose to fall so easily and almost effortlessly back into our small and
predictable Corner of Comfort, choosing against stretching of any kind...
Physically
Emotionally
Mentally
Spiritually.
And in this process, we are
actually experiencing more pain than we will ever know what to do with. We
experience an invisible pain of sorts, a pain that exists in the majority of
our population, a population of Silent Sufferers, all with emotions made of
brick and ideas made of concrete. Just sticking to the routine because that’s
all we know how to do. Of course, this is in hopes of avoiding the pain that we
think we know so well.
We avoid stretching ourselves conversationally and
experientially because we simply fear pain. We fear the unknown, the risk
involved, and the overall soreness that can follow that initial ache. We will
do anything in our power to fill in the gaps, to cushion our words, to stick to
the script, all for…what??
Sometimes comfort can kill.
Sometimes routine can destroy.
And sometimes, a little pain is worth it.
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